The Trek

The countdown has started.  In two weeks I will be completely packed ready to leave my nice comfy bed for three months only to return after a week back home in mid-September.  Don't worry Grandma, I'll be back home for good before Christmas.

A friend asked me yesterday if I was excited or homesick.  I said a little of both.  I'm going to try my best to describe the feelings coursing through my body as I type this.  Maybe in the end I can make since of the jumbled mess they are.

Excitement?  Yes, this is definitely one of them.  As I've stated in an earlier post, I've been praying for an opportunity like this for three years.  Father has continually told me to wait, and wait, and wait.  And now, I feel He's saying to me "Daughter, go. Make Me famous.  The time is right."

Homesick?  Oh, yeah.  This is a big one.  It's like going to live on campus again except this time I'm thousands of miles away.  There's no one to lock the door of my apartment, no one to say "goodnight, I love you," no one to sing "Norman, Norman Oooo ooo oooo" every single morning.  These are the things I'll miss.

Fear?  No, this is not one of them.  Never have I been afraid to do something the Lord made so clear for me to do.  He opened the doors, He provided the funds, He gave me peace that surpasses every thought (Philippians 4:7).  I fully believe this is what He has called me to do for this season of my life and He will protect my every step.

Apprehension?  Haha.  Any form of uneasiness I'm feeling is not coming from the Lord.  Nope, it's coming from "Ole Spooky" as Mike Story (director of the OSU BCM) puts it.  And I'm not listening to him.  I can tell the voice of my Shepherd. Please pray that this will stay true throughout my journey.

Basically, my action plan to confront all these emotions is exactly how I confronted my fear of organic chemistry lab every Tuesday and Thursday of last semester.  By repeating Philippians 4:6-7 over and over and over. I literally said it 2.7 million times in a mere 16 weeks.

"Do not worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.  And the peace of God, which surpasses every thought, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus."

Thank you Paul for your encouraging, applicable, slap-in-the-face, sometimes crazy worded but God inspired letters.