Whew. I feel like I'm in this limbo period of my life. No work, no set time to go to classes. I don't know what to do with myself. This leaves little to blog about and a lot of time to ponder.
Usually, when I ponder too much I end up a basket case. There are so many things I miss about my mom and many more things I just never learned from her. Yesterday I was sad and irritated because I don't know how to make goulash. It's the stupid little things that get me. I mean, come on. Goulash?
This is just one example of many. There has been an OSU football helmet moment, a girly movie moment, a chicken moment, a picture moment, a boy moment.
I know I find my joy in the Lord and not in circumstances, but I've been finding that hard lately. I know there are reasons to be joyful. My mom is joyful. She would want me to be that way, too. It's just not easy.
So I'm pressing forward, looking for the joy I know to be deep down in my heart.
There is NOTHING stupid about Goulash.
ReplyDeleteI love my Meagan! I'm always a phone call/text away, and you know I love hearing about boy moments.
YOU are a joyful person too, but it's okay to feel sad sometimes. It's totes normal. Love you girly!